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Unexpected


My life took an unexpected turn when I met a man who claimed to be Jesus. It wasn’t his claim that so stunned and surprised me. (I’d met interesting characters before) The surprise was that I began to have a very intense and emotional experience of remembering him and a life we had had together that spanned the first century and many years together in spirit.

This knowledge didn’t come to me as a sudden bolt of lightning bolt nor as a mystical spirit guided adventure. It was more like a series of gut-wrenching, terrifying, emotional experiences – similar to the re-experience of suppressed trauma. At the time these feelings were totally confusing and seemingly unrelated to my current life in any way.

Prior to this my life had not been noted for its spiritual pursuits or enlightened status, but neither, I believe, had I been regarded as very ‘flaky’, prone to whimsical flights of fancy or bizarre metaphysical experience.

It was really all quite unexpected.

So AJ (Jesus) and I didn’t start our relationship with a whirlwind romance nor did I feel any sense of excitement to realise who I was. It was actually nearly the exact opposite. I was shocked, challenged, and afraid of my feelings and what they meant.

I got angry.

I couldn’t deny my experience but boy did I try! I thought I had my life figured out and yet now there were deeper things stirring in me and even with time and distance from AJ (which I have taken many times since we met) I couldn’t deny that I now wanted more from life than what I’d had before and that if I was going to live with deeper meaning I would have to resolve who I was.

Now four years later, I still grapple to come to terms with who I am and what that means on a grander scale. These intense emotional experiences continue today and as I allow them, more understanding and insight comes to me. I feel grateful and in love with AJ but life doesn’t yet feel completely simple. Actually, I'm no where near simple clarity on life yet. (smile)

I am so passionate about what we teach – I believe it is the answer to living at our fullest potential as human beings – yet many times I still want the issue of our identities to go away. It’s a desire that does me no service. For if we are to experience this true potential, to become the amazing beings God created us to be, we will each of us have to come to terms with who we truly are. That means connecting with what we desire and love, but also with what we have experienced in the past. And this truth counts for me as much as it does for anyone else.

So my challenge is to live these teachings in the truest and fullest way I can. This means humility to whatever comes along, including this experience, these emotions and knowledge of a former life on earth and in spirit, that are so much a part of me.

That often makes me feel crazy. Sometimes I want to hide.

But lately I want to share my heart for God and the beauty we may find in a relationship with our Creator.

So if you are new to this blog, I’m sure if you read the archives you will feel my struggle, and sense my distress at times when I’ve been less humble and projected my need outwards. I started to blog because I was writing anyway – volumes and volumes of thoughts and reflections as I grappled to come to terms with this massive life change. Someone guided me to feel that perhaps sharing these things would be valuable to others. But I’m not sure if it hasn’t all really been to help me work through my fears. :)

I have no doubt that what and how I share will continue to change as I continue to change and grow.

My feeling now is that a story becomes meaningful as it unfolds, that no single point in the narrative is as significant as the deeper meaning inherent in the journey. So perhaps you will forgive my less graceful moments in prose and join me on a journey?

Mary Magdalene 
April, 2012

11 comments:

  1. Just Love you Guys... Thank you xxx

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  2. Mary, I can imagine the huge realization this must be to have as I know it was as well for AJ. There was a time when AJ was in denial about his real identity and being in error blocked the holy spirit from receiving the Divine Love. Once accepting his true identity of Jesus of the bible the Divine Love poured in.
    What a huge test and realization to have!

    Why is it man finds it so hard to accept truths? Im sure we could find 100 different answers to that. (laughs)

    What huge responsibility!!! is the way I see it. And you both will be known by your deeds which you have commenced in a big way with so much information on the http://www.divinetruth.com site... just simply awesomely phenomenal!!! When I sit and listen to you both, I can feel the longings in my soul for the Fathers Divine Love. So for me its my therapy.

    What has baffled me most is this preconceived erroneous idea of who Jesus was and therefore it could now never be AJ.... not sure whether to laugh or cry.
    As I don't have these notions being brought up in the Jewish faith, the only notion I have is that Jesus is not God, but a son of God Just like us, which is true as well Jesus never said he was God but just an invention of man which is in error!

    So many are quick to come to erroneous conclusions about Jesus and you Mary of who you bouth should be like, and the talk about being soulmates, most think soulmates is something where we choose our partner and call them your Soulmate.
    Why be so quick to judge? in fact why judge at all?

    For me its just been such a huge privilege I will always treasure our friendship.
    To now and the days ahead.

    I love you both very much,

    George

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  3. Mary, I've deeply connected with your videos that you and AJ are posting on youiube. Keep the faith and I hope to see you in the States some time soon. Much love. Mike

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  4. My Birthday is on her(Marys)feast day my name is Margaret Marie which means Mary Mary I have red hair and my mans initials are JC as in Jeff C.... I won't say his last name. Even our bloodlines can be trace back to druidism and Judaism with him having a pinch of french Haitian as well so Jesus (Yeshua Ben Josef)is also a black man. I had very intense visions and ecstasies of the crucifiction and I was not religious either. We are all one the all that is. So it makes sense that we long to be loved like Christ loved his bride... And to reflect and bring that love to the world as they did! Sorry to burst your bubble but a lot of woman feel the are her and his bride/wife.

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    1. Hi Margaret, no bubble burst here, I understand that there are many other women who also believe they are Mary Magdalene. I'm certainly not investing in you or anyone else sharing my beliefs.

      I am unlike you in many ways however. For instance, I’m not basing my beliefs on signs, nor do my memories take the form of visions or ecstasies, and they are not solely of the crucifixion. Also, while I agree that as God's children we are connected, I do not believe that we are 'all one'. Each of us is an individual, with a unique personality and experience.

      Truthfully, it is my hope that people take interest in what myself and my soul mate teach, not based on our identity claims or any mystical sign, but on the basis that they experiment with these truths and find it positively transforms their lives.

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  5. . Have you read the bible?? When Jesus arrives to the earth EVERY ONE will know about it, no one would doubt OK? My dad is a wickar in the Swedish church, sure he would know the Jesus is back? I believe in God and Jesus, but your husband is not Jesus and you're not Mary Magdalene OK. Reincarnation is not christian at all. I'm so angry and worried, another suicide cult?? Will you start with human sacrifice? Small children? Innocent children dragged in to this. I just want to say one more thing, you as a woman and a human you can do what ever you want, no one decides for you if you want to travel around the world, start school a new job, that's your decicion, God gave us a free will. So what I want to say is that your husband does not decide for you what you want to do OK? I really hope I don't have to hear about mass killing from this cult. And sorry just one more thing, the end of the world, no one knows only God himself know, not Jesus, he does not know about the end of the world. For God sake read the bible again.

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    2. Hi there me2346,

      I'm not interested in changing your belief systems about Jesus and God - you seem very clear on them and they are certainly not any of my business.

      I can however tell you a few truths about myself and AJ and hopefully help you to not feel so worried or upset.

      1. We do not and would not ever endorse suicide. Using your own will to end your life, which is a gift from God, is very harmful to your soul condition. While I have compassion for people who taken this action, I would never encourage another to do it, nor do it myself.

      AJ and I champion people having the highest regard for all of life and using their free will in harmony with love and Gods Laws. We never dictate to people what they should do, instead we encourage them to make their own decisions based on loving principles. We don't even lead group prayer meetings because we believe that prayer is a personal and heartfelt feeling of an individual in communication with God.

      Since we honour all of life and don't believe in group rituals it is impossible that we would ever sacrifice anyone. In fact we believe that such an act is entirely evil and that the consequences for such an action would be incredibly detrimental and harmful.

      2. I have not ever claimed to be a Christian as defined by current organized Christian religions and churches on the planet today. I do believe in parts of the bible but I do not believe that it is a complete and final representation of the word of God. The belief that it is seems incongruous with an infinite and loving God. (Why would God need people to read a book, and only one particular book, in order to come to know him? Doesn't seem logical or loving) The bible was written by men some 300 years after Jesus was on earth (whether you believe AJ is Jesus or not this is the historical fact).

      I don't believe in reincarnation as it is currently taught by many eastern philosophies. If you wish to understand our belief systems on the human soul, the spirit world and reincarnation (all of which we do have experience with) then there are many youtube videos on our channel that you could watch that outline exactly our beliefs.

      3. I understand that I have the gift of free will, which I am exercise consciously. You seem to have made some false assumptions about AJ and my relationship with him. Not only do I freely and happily exercise my will in our relationship and my life, but he also encourages me to do this.

      At this time in my life I actually feel more free to make decisions and take actions that are based on love and desire than ever before. Before I started to practice the principles that we teach I often made decisions based on guilt or a sense of obligation. This wasn't very nice, and it was also me bending my free will to what others wanted. I don't believe God wants us to do this, rather He desires that we know ourselves and use our will in harmony with His Love and His Laws. That's how I try to live my life now.

      4.I'm not sure what you mean about the end of the world. But Jesus and I don't believe in the apocalypse.

      I think that's all I can say to address your concerns in the small space I have available here.

      With my best wishes,
      Mary

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  6. sigh... typical cult. Search the scriptures!
    Even Jesus said:
    Matthew 24:5 "or many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many."

    The fact is both you and your husband will have to stand before the judgment seat of Christ and give an account.
    ( 2 Corinthians 5:10, Romans 14:12)
    It does not matter what you believe, but the truth, the truth is you will stand before the true Christ who was God in Flesh and has always existed and is in heaven at the right hand of the father, not this fake Christ of your cult, who is merely a man with a mental condition, and you will give an account of your life. If you do not have the Jesus of the Bible, who died for your iniquities against God's law, as your lord and savior, then you will have to face the wrath of God and if you are fount breaking even one point of the law of God, you will be sentenced to everlasting fire!

    You know in your heart deep inside this is wrong. I pray that you will come to your senses and Repent of your sin, turn from your sinful mindset and turn toward Christ (not the fake christ of this cult) and accept his payment for your sin he died for on the cross!

    I pray, oh how I pray, that you will come to your senses both of you, and repent and believe the gospel (1 Corinthians 15:1-4).

    You are not mary, no matter how much you try to convince your sinful self, and your husband is not Jesus, no matter how hard you try to convince yourself. You are suppressing the truth because you love your sin!!! Turn from your sin and believe the Gospel of the Jesus who died for your sins, was buried and rose 3 days later!!!! and is now at the right hand of the father in heaven!! (Ephesians 2:4,5,6)

    You are dead in your sin both of you, I pray that you will hear what I have said and come to your senses.

    There have been many people in the past to claim they are Jesus, and this is so true to what Jesus said in Matthew 24:5.

    I am not hating on you, nor am I trying to get you to believe me, but rather to believe what the God of the Bible has said. Muslims, Hindus, Catholics, Mormons, Jws, are all the same as you. There gods do not exist out of their minds. But the truth is 10 out of 10 people die. And one day you will stand before the true and all mighty God weather you want to or not, and it will NOT be your husband or Aj as you may call him.

    I am worried greatly about your souls. And I pray you will come to Repentance and Believe the Gospel!

    Good day. :)

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  7. hem... I like this blog. I visited your blog.

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  8. hi mary
    im not sure about any of this
    at this point in my life im very confused about god and religion and many other things although I am very young (19 years)
    I suffer from cronic depression and I just don't know what to think about anything
    may I ask you to give me some advice about my situation and maybe give me a link to some of the teachings you think may help me best
    I thank you for your time and give my regards to aj
    levi west

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