tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post8054670777662011235..comments2023-05-19T00:01:21.446+10:00Comments on My Story: Self Punishment and JoyMaryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14561648741360500519noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post-32566002484207730192011-05-22T03:43:47.114+10:002011-05-22T03:43:47.114+10:00Dear Mary
Thank you for sharing this with us. You...Dear Mary<br /><br />Thank you for sharing this with us. Your honesty validates all our feelings. I have found that I want to punish myself before someone else gets the chance, I see myself cowering like a dog waiting for the next kick or slap (I was never physically abused but harsh words and neglect hurt). However I know I need to look inside me to see clearly where I have done the same thing, lashed out at others to relieve my own pain. That feels enormous - do I pray to God for him to help me and hold me?<br /><br />Thank you.Amandanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post-28909676383151247202011-05-02T07:34:55.689+10:002011-05-02T07:34:55.689+10:00Self punishment is so so HUGE for me; something le...Self punishment is so so HUGE for me; something learned in early childhood; growing up with the belief of not being good enough, that happiness had to be EARNED somehow - that was, and shamedly still is my pattern / belief...the silly intellectual one anyway. i had a mother who would say "they love themselves a bit", or "they think they're pretty good" like this was a WRONG.....a inappropriate emotion to display(isn't this what god intends for us)....so, I felt it was wrong to show joy or self love, like if you did you were somehow showing off, or not being humble and kind. pfft.....like you said it takes courage to let go of the self punishment...and I pray I can surrender to FEEELING this in order to regain heartfelt joy....which I have had snippets of....only fleetingly lately..with me it is the LETTING GO of earning joy...allowing EMOTION to flow so I CAN THEN BE OPEN TO JOY....Maybe I'm writing this in the wrong post now, but there's a fine line between pleasure and pain (ie vagina/god post)-sorry this song popped ito my head! so, praying for COURAGE and OWNING my emotions...to cease blaming. Playing small for fear of judgement from others;have lived in that....sometimes afraid of our own light and POTENTIAL because of where it may take us......wow...to even feel joy!??<br /><br />AA anonymous A<br /><br />THANKYOU MARY :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post-69163442401764760502011-02-04T17:30:33.677+10:002011-02-04T17:30:33.677+10:00Thank you Mary for sharing and being so humble. I ...Thank you Mary for sharing and being so humble. I found this blog such a great revelation! I have been berating myself for so many things focusing on all the things that show me 'how far away from God' I am. I realised I am expecting little (3 year old - ME - which is where I feel spiritually tiny) Vanessa to do calculus! Of course I have been struggling but I guess I just need to practice more faith and trust and keep praying to God and as they say on the TV 'it won't happen overnight BUT it will happen! (Sorry for daggy analogy) Anyway thanks again Love VanessaVanessahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13604312303806750485noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post-50973772204330015922011-01-26T01:40:10.036+10:002011-01-26T01:40:10.036+10:00Thank you so much for taking the time to write. I ...Thank you so much for taking the time to write. I so appreciate you doing this. Your words are so powerful i never fail to cry! Love reading your posts. I guess more people are reading this than the comments your getting, cause like me it's hard to know how to thank you, words fail me. I feel silly when your words seem so wise. When I feel confused at my feelings you always seem to write just what I need to hear! Thank you Much love and thank you's xxxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post-60818449259761174052011-01-25T21:04:13.271+10:002011-01-25T21:04:13.271+10:00Thank you Mary for all your sharing, It feels in m...Thank you Mary for all your sharing, It feels in my heart we are all connected and I am so grateful you are opening doors for all of us, AJ step, your step makes a way in my heart to make a stemp for myself...Thank you for your courage, your love, your share, your truth and your openness...<br />Love you<br />xxx<br />NinaNina Bossardhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08204256083720405864noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post-30850614478364679532011-01-21T20:24:19.869+10:002011-01-21T20:24:19.869+10:00=) emotional pioneers=) emotional pioneersAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5845211193543177322.post-5247291648132327432011-01-21T19:25:09.950+10:002011-01-21T19:25:09.950+10:00'guilted'...exactly what it feels like.
my...'guilted'...exactly what it feels like.<br />my biggest block to date.<br />Just like the seminars have done, it almost always feels like these posts are made specifically for the person at the moment.<br />very cool.<br />Thank u, Mary. <br />These blogs shed a light to what feels like an infinite darkness at times.<br />Rock on. :c)Marinanoreply@blogger.com